~break up!~hook up?~

ok...richard and gina broke up today....we all knew it was coming. but ANYWAYZ....ya. i'm really bored..and this is strange but...I'M TIRED! *gasp* yes, yes i know. its sad. ok...i REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY like colton!!!!!!! it was so awesome, he came over today! it was fun fun fun! (no really, it was!) we pretty much just laid there together the whole time. ah, good times, good times. *big big smile* i doubt he is as happy about it as i am but hey, i'm a girl...and my love emotions are exaggerated from the normal girls, leave me alone! i cant help it! well yeah. i dont really have anything to say @ the moment. hm. ya. well. hm. hehehe. I LOVE YOU ALL! (once again...some more than others) whoa, it's 1:15 AM but i SWEAR i just heard a doorbell!!! omg, im going crazy! ttyl ... luv you all

mi abuelo tiene pie de los atletas, huela sus pies

mi abuelo tiene pie de los atletas, huela sus pies

thats SUPPOSED to say my grandfather has athletes foot, do smell his feet. but apparantly it says smell my feet or something like that (rob informed me of this)

ew dude, it smells like stinky feet in here!

my mom said i cant have guys over after school nemore, even if we just walk around the neighborhood...even if they have girlfriends...even if they dont like me. thats SO retarded, ok if i wanna have sex she'll gimme a condom and let me do my thing but i cant have guys over or go on a date. her methods are fooked up maaan.

...i luv colton.

haha...dang, i wish i could find out if he liked me back but the weirdness of it all..oh the weirdness. haha

i had to sit and watch richard give gina a hickey today. ew.

i was sad before that .. and he came up to me and kinda held my waist like he did when we went out but he backed up as soon as he realized what he was doing. strange moment.

well thats all for now. i luv u all..some more than others.

Dear, I fear we're facing a problemyou love me no longer, I know and maybe there is nothing that I can do to make you do Mama tells me I shouldn't bother that I ought to stick to another man a man that surely deserves me but I think you do!

Lately I have desperately pondered, spent my nights awake and I wonder what I could have done in another way to make you stay Reason will not lead to solution I will end up lost in confusion I don't care if you really care as long as you don't go So I cry, I pray, and I beg Love me, love meS ay that you love me Fool me, fool me Go on and fool me

-The Cardigans

poems

i wrote poems! ....3 are about richard and 1 is about colton. ...hehe, see, the funny thing about the richard poems is that i wrote the first two (the bad ones) when me and him were "dating" and i wrote the 3rd one after we broke up. teehee...good cheese. here they are! (dont you love the ORIGINAL names?)

Richard 1

You make my heart throb and pound in my chest,

There are a lot of guys at this school but I swear you're the best!

After all the pain I've been put through,

I consider it a miracle to find someone like you.

Richard 2

Does the thought of losing me scare you?

'Cause if I lost you, I don't know what I'd do.

I know you hate hearing me say I don't know,

So you know what I know? You make all my days glow!

Richard Final.

You're a stupid little boy, you don't know what you want.

Forever my mind you're going to haunt.

It was a mutual break-up 'cause you're a dumbass.

I'm gonna get me a guy who has some class!

Colton

You've hurt me before

But I don't think it matters

You're a guy I adore

Those painful memories are now just blurs

there...thats it. hehe....arent they lovely? the last one about richard, ya...it was a bit harsh. my bad....my mommy called him ugly today! omg...it was uh....strange. but she didnt mean nuttin by it LoL. ...hes kewl though. i was holding a lot of anger after the break-up (for good reasons)

ok...i'm gonna share a joke then i'm off...I'M TIRED. (weird)

OK....

When's the right time to slap a midget?

When he says he likes the smell of your hair.

OK think about it, I don't know anybody who got it right away. I'd LOVE to get comments about THIS post!!! ttyl! luv ya!

doo doo dooooo

ok, somehow richard knows i wrote mean stuff about him in here. i dont even remember what i wrote but o well..i guess i'll look later 2 see. ...he thinks i hate him, and though i'd have good reason to....i dont. strange. haha, well drew got to come over today which was pretty cool! we had fun fun fun...i tink shes coming over again 2morrow! YIPPEE! shes supposed 2 be online..what a whore. LoL im jk i luv u drew! ....i want colton to come over 2morrow. i wanted him to come today but he said he didnt want to after i told him who i was with (gina, richard, drew) ...plus he was going to the mall. but its all good haha. i sound dumb when i say that. omg...KODY IS SO TALL! BUT...in a good way of course. I'm listening to Queen-Bohemian Rhapsody...thats gotta be spelt wrong. o wellz...ok, i thought i was like totaly 100% over richard, but when i see him and gina kissing n what not i feel all....weird n stuff. idk it just doesnt feel right. but they can do as they please, cause i luv colton!!! yay me?OMG..now im listening to oops i did it again LoL oh god good stuff, good stuff. well, its late and i got school in the morning. (dang.) i love you all!!!!!!!! tassie- i miss you drew- you dont give me the chance to miss you kody- dang ur tall (yay) greg- ur so sweet! britney spears- u slut (rock on) hahahahaha? marissa- what is up with thee? ashley- i love you dont be sad ever ever ever ever ever!!! umm...is there sumbody im missing? i know i am. i can FEEL it. uhhh gina- u took my man, but its ok!!! i 4give you! actually.....he kinda like, left me..you didnt take him. LoL...well...ya, i dont miss him in that way, strange. im a dumbass!!! with a captial D! adios yall ~i looove you~

what a dumbass!

ok, its official! richard is a flucking dumbass!!! he broke up w/me again just now....I SWEAR TO GOD if he calls me back im gonna tell him to go screw..um..something, i havent chosen which animal yet, most likely a pig. well anywayz, hes retarded and tomorrow im gonna hit on every guy that i've looked @ in the past week that i couldnt go up to because of richard. ya. :) well ... i think thats all for now!

picture day was today! i looked retarded i know it, but i looked kinda good today, school pictures ALWAYS suck, its like an un-written rule that they have to. i dont like that rule.

hmmm...

...gotta go walk to daniel's with marissa!

...oh, and

I LOVE ZACH!

he broke up w/me......a lot

ok, richard was over @ my house again on tuesday, and so was my friend gina (who likes richard). and they ended up making out....4 times....once they did it on my effing stomach! gross. that night he broke up w/me..then like 2 hours called back and decided to be w/me again. then today he broke up w/me for gina, and then called back like 20 minutes later to take me back...so we're together again. but i SWEAR TO GOD, if he makes out or touches anyone while we're going out again, hes dead. and if he breaks up w/me then tries to get w/me again........i'll chop his nuts off. jk...but i wont go out w/him .well, thats all the news for now. damn its hot in here.

well see yall laterz!!! :)

Richard!!!

i got a boyfriend! i got a boyfriend!!

im soooooo happy!

hes soooooooooooooooo cool.....his name is richard and i know him from my math class last year........but @ one point he moved to Washington it SUCKED. he was gone for a long time, but hes BACK! yippeeee!!!!!! well anywayz, we didnt talk much on the first day of skewl (he had forgotten who i was) but on tuesday night he asked me out! and OF COURSE i said yes. turns out he liked me all last year and i liked him...whoopie! he came over on thursday but i wouldnt let him in my house cause it was DIRTY.....so he came over yesterday and i let him in cause i cleaneded my room......and we uh.....had fun. he. he. he. well ANYWAYZ.....i dont think i need to go in to detail. yepperooooooooooooooooo!

i feel bad though, now zach is sad cause i got a bf. idk, it sux cause zach was going back to military school anyway so its not like we coulda done anything until he got back, and i told him i'm still gonna be waiting when he gets back but he wouldnt listen, hes saaad. and i feel bad now....

....BUT RICHARD ROCKS MY SOCKS!!!!!