woooo hooooo

uh....yah, i was wrong. sooo wrong. i mean, somehow, INSIDE, i knew that kody wouldnt ever really date me, but ... for some reason i decided, HEY....he'll fall in love with me! No worries! but....i dont know. its official that he wouldnt date me. he'd do me! no doubt about that..but no dating. nope nope nope. but maybe i was just looking for an excuse to say no to greg, but...in doing so, i fell for kody. its too bad he didnt fall for me.

Was I Wrong?

oookay...

so, i told greg that i wanted to just be friends with benefits, and he was kewl with that! yay! and the only reasons i said i didnt wanna be his gf was cause i wanted to be free to mess w/other guys and not get in trouble for it. ....kodycoughcough LoL....

...the only 2 guys on my mind when i said no to him were kody and that guy @ the orthadontist office.

i think im regretting it....kody and i dont seem as close as we used to be now. maybe im just imagining it cause i want a real relationship with him so bad, so...should i have said yes to greg? i need some help here buuuddies. no wait, i know i dont wanna be greg's gf..i just........erg.

*smacks head*

whatever. i luv you all!

GOOD NIGHT LAS VEGAS!!!!

nobody luvs me

YOU GUYS SUCK.

hahaha.....nobody reads this, do they? nobody ever adds comments. you guys...are mean.

wait..there IS no "you guys"...

...CAUSE NOBODY READS THIS!

haha.

..just so i know somebody is out there caring about the dumb shit i write in here...add comments if ur reading this!

THNX A BUNCH ;)

i dance naked

ha. ha. ha. i dont dance naked! who put that? ha. ha. ha. *clears throat*

so anywayz...

i like this guy Greg and he asked me out....but i like Kody a lot. and theres like NO hope of me and kody dating cause he doesnt want a gf, but i dont think im willing to give up whatever it is that me and kody have quite yet. i mean....i like greg! theres no doubt about that! but...i think i just wanna be friends w/him, maybe friends w/benefits. but if im friends w/benefits w/him AND with kody..then does that make me a whore?

..and if i say no to greg now, then when i want him really bad...then will HE say no?

...plus, when i told my friend Gina that i liked greg, i wasnt really wanting to go any further than friends w/him, i just stated that i liked him! thats it.

i thought i wanted a boyfriend, but i realized...NO I DONT! i know it sounds awful, but im SO not ready to give up flirting w/guys and lookin @ guys and all that good cheese just to be with one guy. (especially since theres this really hott guy i saw @ my orthadontist the other day) well anywayz.....i dont want a BOYFRIEND...i just want a guy that'll hold me!

well......i guess my final answer for greg is no, lets just be friends or friends with benefits (his choice). hm. ......i think no matter what my choice was i'd be regretting it later.

heres a little song i wrote, you might want to sing it note for note, dont worry ... be happy!

kody

Guess what.......theres this guy from my school last year named Kody ... hes hott dude LoL...he was last year, he grew his hair out and i havent seen it yet. i bet hes still hott LoL. he makes me sooo horny. LoL jp (srry kody)

well, im off 2 save the world.

no inspiration

ugh. no inspiration on what to write today. I'm gonna try to write a poem. Emotionally numb Spiritually dumb Emptiness inside Run and hide Want sumbody to love Somebody that wont shove All my loves have gone away Will I find the one some day? There, it probably sucks cause I have inspiration and im just not using it very well..but there ya go. *sigh* oh boy. i dont know what to say none of you are listening to me, you SUCK! ......WRITE A COMMENT. it gives me something to do. I guess im gonna go now. i'll write sumtin if i think of it... ...but everybody should listen to the song Stitches by Orgy thanx Zach for reccomending it!! I LOVE IT!

haircut....love...ME.

haircut and love ... what do they have to do with eachother? ME. of course!

Last Friday (Friday the 13th) I got a haircut...yep yep yep. Now my hair barely reaches my shoulders, I'm a lil insecure @ the moment about it, but everyone says I look really good, so I'm just gonna trust them. It was kinda sucky that my own sis didnt recognize me @ first. But, after awhile u get over that. Haha.

Oh God, I wanna fall in LOVE!!!! I NEED a boyfriend...one that can, be here for me and all that good stuff. Not like, I'm super desperate and I need a man, I just....I want somebody to hold me like they mean it, and to kiss me like they mean it. I miss the kicks of having a boyfriend. There are many guys I'd LIKE to date, but I dont know if any of them would be romantic or ever hold me. Hm.

NoOoOoOoOoOo...

It's 1:24 AM on Tuesday (August 17th) ... I have to get up real early cause I have a school orientation and an orthadontist appt. My days are just GREEEAT.....

see...the other day I had to leave the dentist early cause my step-dad (Rob) had an appt....so no cleaning, but instead they did it on the 16th..fun fun fun. oh god, i need sleep. BUT SLEEP MEANS NO FUN! GAH! what to do what to do.

oh, and...i dont know if erik reads these, but, erik..if you do..WASSUP!? hahahahaha. im a dork......anywayz.....no more 2 say, plus this is HELLA long (why the hell do i keep saying hella? ick) post, so .... yeah. adios

BY THE WAY...

YOU ALL NEED TO START RESPONDING TO MY POSTS

its fun 2 know ppl actually read this.

I'm really bored.

I.

Am so.

BORED.

god this is dull.

it is now.......9:22 am

have i slept yet?

the answer is no.

i have not

BUT...have i watched millions of meaningless, low intellegence short films on www.joked.com and checked my horoscope on 3 different sites, had my tarot card reading, and seen what my name means?

but of course.

hmm hmm hmmmmm hm hm.

i have to go to my rents studio 2day for no damn reason...idk, they're making me.

then i have to go to the dentist.

then i get to come home and have the REAL fun!

...i get to clean my house...including my AWFUL room. and for what reward you ask?

NONE!

oh boy. this is gonna be an interesting day.

I HATE GOING TO THE DENTIST!!!!

I TRULY HATE IT WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING.

they're gonna clean my teeth, which means the clutsy idiot dentist is gonna MISS my tooth somehow and hit my gums with a sharp object.

NO!

back away from my gums!

well....im bored. do you think i've said that enough times yet? no? ok...

im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. im bored. IM BORED.

as a matter of fact...im SO bored...i didnt copy/paste that AT ALL. i just sat here and wrote it.

well..im gonna go be bored somewhere else.

later dayz

FOR THOSE ABOUT TO ROCK

WE SALUTE YOU

anywayz....

OMG! hehehe...on Friday i go 2 my hair person lady named Honey Graham (i reccomend her to EVERYBODY) and shes gonna fix up my hair. i have NO clue what im gonna do but shes known me for like..ever so shes gonna figure out whats best 4 me! im so excited! then when i get home my mom's gonna put pink in my hair! yay!

well anyway...on the EGG front....hes got a girlfriend..just like every guy i like...but no worries! i'll find my man...yes...i will. my horoscope says august is my lucky luv month! ...it better be right.

everybody's hookin up. i feel so lonely. lol ... no really i do.

i need a bf...call me ;) lol

(no really...call me)

well..lets see...what else is there to say? oh..drew's here! she keeps pulling my hair. she was typing w/her nose so i smashed her face in to the keyboard. it was SO funny!

richard should be coming back soon, i had a crush on him but he had to move to washington for ... certain reasons. but hes coming back! yayfullness! ........hmmmm.....i got married.

to an online guy. online. lol.....hes hott!

well..thats all 4 now. ttyl! big kisses!